Frustration With The Job Search

How am I supposed to show enthusiasm for every job I apply to if I am losing optimism in all my efforts? I have written so many cover letters. Long and short. Showing my excitement, maybe showing too much excitement. There are the sites that only allow one cover letter even if you are applying to multiple similar jobs with different requirements.  A company has contacted me! I figured they must have seen something they like. I tried not to get my hopes up and send what they ask. One week, no reply. Send nice follow up letter. One more week, “we went in a different direction”. Friends have sent me job applications, still turned down. Then there are the companies that don’t get back to you not even with a generic email to say you suck. (I understand why they don’t send emails).  And worst the companies that will give you a job but only if they don’t have to pay you. Would you like to build up your resume with our internship? How about a few more articles? We have over a million readers coming to our site daily. Don’t forget to flood your social feeds with your articles and did you ask you friends to like our page.

Tomorrow I’ll be fine. Write new cover letters, sent out a few more resumes, and maybe write a few 100 words towards a story. Today is the day to let out the frustration.

Job Searching

March 12, 2012

To bad there isn’t a box I can check stating, Scared to Death. It would forgive any mistakes I made in the cover letter after I send it out. I know from experience one mistake can prevent you from getting a job. I kicked myself when I didn’t send a follow up saying, “I did see I made this mistake after I sent it.” But company probably would have still told me to bad. Maybe do better next time. Wish I sent a cover letter with a resume recently to a job in Georgia. Guess I don’t have to worry about moving.

Scared to death because it has been so long since I’ve had a job, I wonder if I even know if I’m going in the right direction. Scared to death because I’m tired of the 9-5 grind in a dull office with no or so few windows that look out at another gray building. Tired of working my ass off and getting nothing because I didn’t participate in the employee ass kissing contest so I’m ignored.

Wish I could be some genus and think of some great idea and I could be the boss or co-boss of. Don’t have the mind for it. To fearful. Wish I could stop searching, stop worrying, and just be happy.

Jobless Forever?

February 7, 2011
My heart hurts. I’m worried it is stress. See that, I’m worried because I’m stressed. Doesn’t that make me even more stressed?

A year ago I thought I would be better than I am now. After a writing internship for a year and a half and editorial internship for six months I thought I would land a job in a magazine, publishing house, or newspaper. I thought I would be learning the ropes, fetching coffee, and making money. I was dead wrong.

If I could get paid for sending out resumes I would be the best. It is a cruel obsession. Reading the requirements before the companies profile, wondering how many have already sent their resumes even though the job posting just went up a few hours ago. Never really being fully qualified.

People telling you, “don’t give up on your dream.” Seeing articles like, “The Best Companies to Work For” or “Top 50 Careers” only to see they have nothing close to your profession. Realizing you majored in the wrong subject. Seeing friends spend money, have fun and not care. Working in their dream jobs and the envy eating you.

I remember when I was happy. What happened to that girl?


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